I need boy help prefibly from a boy girls too!!!!?

So I met this kid almost a year ago&at first we were just friends.But one night we got drunk&he told me he liked me I told him I felt the same&ended up having sex .After that we hung out everyday,then he asked me out and broke up with me the next day lmao-____- we had along talk and he said he just wanted to be friends cuz he doesnt want things to wnd bad&lose me forever but we can still mess around but we still continued to hangout like he would bring me everywhere we would alqays be together then oneday one of our friends had a party&he got mad cuz I was talking to a guy but he was my beatfriends little brothers best friend I didn't like the kid at all but he ended up having sex with some *****:(so I had sex with one of his friends to get back at him after he left I was so upset and I wasn't thinking ofcourse he found out&he got so upset he never wanted to talk to me again and I balled my eyes out he wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the summer I didn't even get to say good bye I wrote him like 3letters on face book and he would just ignore me&I would text him pages no response so I deleted his number&tried to move on.Then one day he texted me saying how I texted him i loved him but I didn't&then we talked&we were good when he came back for vaca we chilled still had sex talked about alot all that shitt&now were fine we talk all the time and when ever he comes home we chill.When he had a girlfriend he cheated on her with me(ik that's bad)I tell him everything I trust him more than I trust my girlfriends he says that I'm the girl version of him&he makes me happy. I wrote him a long letter telling him how I felt&he wrote back but he didn't tell me how he felt he said that I was crazy but so is he he said I was beautiful in his eyes he said that we connect on a level Boone can even imagine he said that I'm different I don't follow people. Am I wasting my time? Cuz I would wait forever for him but Idk how he feels I just need some opions any at al please help